NORTH Wales Crusaders standoff Andy Moulsdale has decided to retire from the game, he opened up about his struggles off the field too.
Having joined the squad since its inception, Moulsdale has been an ever present for the Crusaders, he captained the side in 2013 when the club won promotion. He was appointed as General Manager of the club in 2017, a role he did alongside playing.
On his dicision to retire Moulsdale said: “I decided a few weeks ago that this would be my last season playing at the club.
“I have to be honest with myself, the fans and more importantly my team mates, I’m not the player I was two years ago and it frustrates me, I haven’t enjoyed playing this season and my performances are not up to the standard that I set myself.
“I’ve had a tough few years coming back from injury and it affected me away from rugby. I struggled coming back from the operation on my legs, I’d never been injured before and I couldn’t get my head around not being able to play.
“The truth is that I went into depression, I didn’t want to train, struggled getting motivated for anything and was then in denial of what I was going through, thinking that this wouldn’t and shouldn’t affect me.
“By the time I was right to play again I’d lost nearly two years of my career, I wanted to come back and play again and I have, but I just don’t have the same enthusiasm to go again next season.
“I’ve been lucky over this period to be supported by great people who have helped me more than they’ll know, he said. The way that Muzza [Anthony Murray], Alan [Hadcroft], Adam [Daniels] and Ian Edwards were with me was unbelievable.
“I’d also like to thank Doctor Richard Lawrence and the team at State Of Mind, especially Phil Cooper, without them talking me through what was happening I’d probably be no better off today.
“I’m lucky to have the best family that I could ask for, but I’m also lucky to have played with some of my best mates who are probably the only ones who know the position which I was in.
“It would take me all day to name everyone but Lee Hudson, Jonny Walker, Jamie Dallimore, Jono Smith, Tommy Johnson, Stephen Wild, Kevin Penny and especially Stuart Reardon, who’s the most positive person you’ll ever meet have all helped me massively. They’re all people who I have met through playing rugby.”
“I’ve had a great six years playing at the club, and have made great memories, met great people and played with a lot of fantastic players and good mates.
“I’d like to thank John Fieldhouse for bringing me to the club as without him none of what I’ve achieved or experienced would have been possible. I’d also like to thank Clive Gritthis for showing faith in me and appointing me as the clubs first captain at 24 years of age. Whilst my team mates might disagree, it made me grow up as a player and made me a better player.
“Finally my thanks goes to the fans, I know everyone says it but genuinely, thank you for all your support for me as a player and what you bring to our club. I hope you will continue to be just as supportive of me as I continue in my role as general manager at the club. I wish Mike [Grady] all the best for this season, I’m sure that we’ll keep the majority of the squad and kick on in 2018.”